Work Is Where Passion Comes To Die

I’ve always wanted to be a writer. Ever since high school, I had many of my own stories to tell. I delved from fiction, scripts, and essays, to blogs and social media. I just knew being a writer was something I am gonna be, and I did.

I also knew that being a writer was something that I wanted… Now, I’m not so sure.

They say if you follow your passion, you’ll never work a day in your life. And, yet funny enough, I’ve written every day for the past six months feeling like I’ve written nothing at all.

I started this blog as a training ground for when I finally kickstart my career, and by this, I mean I finally get employed by a decent company that actually wants me to write for them. And when the opportunity finally came, I was ecstatic. I wanted to learn the ropes, know the proper techniques, and become a master of words enough to sway and relate with people. I even discontinued writing on this blog because I wanted to focus on the career path ahead of me.

For the past six months, I’ve written for work and haven’t stopped since but why does it feel like I did somewhere in between? Where did it all start to go wrong?

Yes, I wanted to sway people, but I didn’t expect to persuade them to purchase. I wanted to relate with people, not to manipulate and use them to my advantage. I guess that’s just how the “real world” works and I have yet to learn to accept that.

You might be thinking that maybe writing isn’t for me but I know it is. I’m probably just going about it in the wrong way. Because if it isn’t, I wouldn’t long for it as I am now. But then again, maybe I’m just fooling myself or that I have yet to discover what my true “passion” is… whatever that really means.

Here’s a thought coming from a person who just entered the workforce:

Maybe passions aren’t meant to be done in exchange for money.

Maybe work isn’t something that you are, but just something that you do.

Maybe passion is solely something that you love doing regardless of being good at it or not.

Maybe it’s because of the pressure that comes along with being good at what you do and doing it not for the sake of your own is where passion comes to die.

But then again, what do I know? I’m still a kid trying to be an adult and figuring things out myself.


Hi, Reader!

It’s been a long time since I spoke to you. I hope you’re still here. And if you are, I just want to say that I hope you’re safe and well. It’s great to be back and share my thought with you. If you have any advice for me or any thoughts/experiences you’d wanna share. I’d greatly appreciate it.

Love,
Fen

10 thoughts on “Work Is Where Passion Comes To Die”

  1. Yes, when it feels like work the passion dies. I’m sorry to hear that you feel that way. Just keep pushing forward, you’re in the right lane. You’re already a writer. Maybe, the problem is what you write about? And the intention on why you are writing.

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    1. Hey, Joana! It’s soo nice to talk to you again! And yes, I agree. I guess I’ve been feeling conflicted with how things turned out to be since it wasn’t what I expected. I’m still trying to think and look at it positively and find ways how to get the passion back or how I should approach it in terms of perspective. I’m at the beginning of my journey after all. I’ll keep going! I’m not giving up on writing just yet 🙂 Thank you so much for your kind words! 💗

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  2. Good to see you here, Fen. I hope everything’s alright with you. As starters, I guess it’s normal to find the right balance between work and your passion.

    There’s always a fine line between what we’re supposed to do and what we love to. With work, maybe the topics on which you write or the formalized work setup don’t give you the same warmth as your personal blog. With time, things will fall in place and you’ll find ways to love both, even if not equally. All the Best!

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    1. Hi, Anisha! I’m so glad to hear from you! I hope you’re doing well too. I totally agree with you on finding balance between work and passion, and I gotta admit that have yet to figure that out.

      I’ll try my best to be kind and gentle with myself and with my work.. Thank you for reminding me. I truly appreciate it 💕

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  3. Hi, Fen. I agree with Joana and Anisha. Keep at it. If you love writing, then keep writing. I have found that writing for work and writing for self is completely different. I also decided a long time ago that I did not like business correspondence, writing manuals, or the thought of being a staff writer for a newspaper or business magazine. I like writing creatively, inspiring others, and making my own mark. Over the years, I have written poems, helped others with business brochures and monthly newsletters, produced my own newsletters, and written articles for community and school newsletters on topics of my choosing. And now, I have self-published my own book, HONOR ONE ANOTHER: The ABCS of Embracing Our Spirit Within. It is not number one on the charts, but my goal is to get into the hands of those who will benefit from its words – no matter how long it takes. I am currently writing my second book. If I had anything to do over or different, I would have spent more time, in my younger years, submitting the writings I enjoy to more magazines – literary and not. So, keep at it. Write for work. But also write for self. Decide what you like to write. Fiction or nonfiction. Essay or poetry. And so on. Follow what your spirit or heart of hearts is leading you to write. Then, figure out how to publish it. I did, and I know you can. There are many great how-to write, how-to publish, and how-to market books out there. You can do this. All the best, Virg 🙂

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    1. Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and insights, Virg! That’s so inspiring to hear and it honestly gives me a little bit of hope.

      What you’ve said about writing for work and writing for yourself is so true and I’m only realizing it now! I haven’t written on my blog in six months. I never made the time and I think constantly writing for work began to slowly exhaust me, but now that I finally wrote even a short update here on my blog and hearing from you, it’s slowly bringing ME back already. It’s a great feeling so yes! I’ll take you up on your advice! Good luck on your 2nd book! I’m sure it’s gonna be amazing! Love, Fen ❤

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