It’s been awhile since I’ve written a self-love post. With everything that went on with my life for the past few months, I’ll have to admit that I found it really hard to love myself and my life in general. But thankfully, I’m finally easing back to the way things were before covid struck.
Anyway, thinking about my personality traits really made me think about the kind of person I really am and how I present myself to others. To be honest, I’ve always hated the fact that I’m an introverted kind of person who just can’t seem to easily engage with other people.
However, writing this post made me think that maybe having such an introverted personality isn’t such a bad thing. I’ve been reflecting a lot about this. After all, I have other sides of myself to show and offer other people.
Growing up, I’ve never realized how constricting my environment was. People in the province usually share the same opinions and have ingrained values that is hard to stray away from.
I think going to the city for college and encountering different kinds of people with various cultures, and opinions helped me a lot in opening myself up to a whole new environment.
I found myself understanding and becoming open to various races, ethnicities, gender, culture, and ideas which was very refreshing. It was like being free from a cage I never knew I was in.
I’m not a judgmental type of person so it was very easy for me to adapt and learn from others. I’ve learned to respect other people’s opinion and to try and understand their perspective on things as a way to reach middleground. Surrounding myself with like-minded people has definitely helped me open up to various opportunities and possibilities that I’ve never thought of before.
One of the worst feelings, for me, is letting people and myself down. I’ve always set high expectations for myself because I want to better myself every chance that I could get. I take pride in being reliable more than anyone especially when being around hard-working people.
If I want or need to do something, I always try my best to make it happen because I believe it’s just better to do something about it than making reasons not to.
I am not the type to beat around the bush mainly because I think it’s such a waste of effort. I will tell you exactly how I see and feel about things so we can address things immediately. I hate lying and I am absolutely bad at it too.
I’ve gotten a lot of trouble for being honest and straightforward in the past. I got my friends mad at me a handful of times and people even disliked me for it. I used to hold myself back a lot. Eventually, I learned that being honest and straightforward helps me determine genuine people who I’d rather surround myself with.
I think my modestly stems from my lack of confidence and the acknowledgement that I still have a lot to improve on. I am very aware of the things I lack and I always try my best to overcome it.
This is a part of myself that I am still working on. I know that I am good at certain things based on the feedback I get but I also don’t necessarily think that I am the best at it either. I’m still a work in progress after all. I just need more experience.
Though I seem to have a tough exterior, I am actually a big softie. Don’t let my b*tch face and quiet personality fool you. I am actually the type to cry a lot when I’m feeling troubled and I tend to show this side of myself to my family and friends.
Another thing about me is that I hate small talk. I prefer having deep conversations like actually trying to get to know people and what they’re really about. I connect with people better in that way.
Vulnerability, for me, is an indication that the person I am engaging with is real and not just a persona. When I start to have a sense of vulnerability from someone, that is when I start to open up as well.
In writing this, I think I’ve come to realize the impact of surrounding myself with the right people has on my personality. Despite my introversion, I think it helped me filter the kind of people that would bring out my best self.
How about you, Reader? What do you think are your best personality traits? I hope you get to think about your positive sides too!