How Writing Should Be

The past few weeks have been crazy and it still is to this day. It felt like the world and the people in it is in self-destruction. Everything I see and hear has been nothing but negativity that it made me even question the thought of hope.

I was in a downward spiral. A lot of negative thoughts that I have tucked away in the corners of my brain have resurfaced, and I just did not know what to do. To say that I was overwhelmed was an understatement.

Still, with everything going on internally I kept pushing myself to write and post here in my blog because writing here is what kept me going, it made me feel like I have a purpose and if I stopped doing it, what else is there for me?

I tried to force myself to write because isn’t that what writers do? They write no matter what. If I don’t write, then i’m not a writer. To some extent, it is true what they say but it can leave an over-thinker like me with as such a toxic mindset.

Still, I couldn’t bring myself to write because how can I write an article about advice when I can’t even be swayed by my own words. What right do I have to write such advices when I can’t even get myself straight? I was in such a contradiction.

The more my stats grew the more I kept pressuring myself to keep on going. I figured that I just had to achieve much more number than these in the next month or week. For a moment, I got to see a glimpse of my previous relationship with writing which was basically me constantly forcing myself to write to the point that I hated even the thought of it.

But this blog isn’t like how my writing was before. It should be a safe space for me to write my own thoughts, get it out of my head and to reflect on different perspectives. It should be about writing from my own experiences and the wisdom I gathered from it, and I have been doing that.

I guess I just got too much into my head again. I forgot that I don’t have to have my shit together all the time. I’m only human after all. I go through things too.

This blog will always be first and foremost, a self-reminder for myself, and then my audience. It will remain a safe space for me even from my own self-pressuring ways, and even if it means that I have to break the streak to give myself some space.

Don’t get me wrong, it’s true that consistency in writing is important. You need consistency to build an audience and to grow your blog but for me, one thing more important than that is a writer’s reason for writing.

I guess an advice that I would want to impart to people who have the same troubles is just write at your own pace and write what you love.

You should first and foremost write for yourself, the same way you do everything else that you love, because that is the only way you’ll continue to love what you do.

In the grand scheme of things, it won’t really matter if you didn’t post on a certain days for using your time for something more important. What will count is what you felt about what writing or any other activity that you love.

18 thoughts on “How Writing Should Be”

  1. Yes! Writing should always be a safe space for all the writers. 😊 I get the anxiety and pressure that you were talking about, keeping the momentum of the stats. But I guess we always need to remember why we were writing in the first place and make it our top priority.

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  2. I so much find myself in what you have written, Fen. This week has been a lot for me as well, and to be honest I have been feeling anxious, sad, depressed and stressed at the same time. I have even considering taking some relaxing pills because it has been too much.

    Hence, I managed to keep posting something simple, like my series of Song of the day or Quote of the day to remain active, but inside I have been dying.
    Thank you for writing this post and keeping me inspired.

    Take care and enjoy your weekend! πŸ˜‡πŸ€—

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    1. I understand how you feel!! I hope that you’ve been able to cope. It’s such a hard time for all of us right now but we’ll get through this! I wish you well!! ❀️❀️

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  3. Hi Fen πŸ’œ I hope you are feeling better. I definitely understand that feeling and I’m very glad that you have your blog so that you have an outlet for expression. You are a great writer for sure. Hugs πŸ€—

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      1. Aww I’m so glad! I’m happy to support you 😊 Definitely take as long of a break as you need. It’s absolutely necessary and good for your wellbeing πŸ’—

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      2. Aww, no worries about that. So many of us have taken breaks and long ones too and thankfully the community understands that things happen in people’s lives, or they just want a break and when you are ready, things kind of pick right back up where you left off ❀

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  4. True true true and so relatable as well. This happens to me sometimes & that’s when I take break.

    You said it so right that we must write for ourselves first. Gaining readers and growing blog is important but that doesn’t mean you need to force yourself to write.

    Your own peace is very important 😊

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    1. It’s hard when this happens but what’s important is to get ourselves back up and write again! Thank you for reading! Glad that you were able to relate! πŸ™‚

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