I think the quarantine is finally getting to me. As an introvert and a couch potato, I figured that being in quarantine will be a piece of cake considering staying inside the whole day is literally my whole lifestyle (This sounds so privileged, I know and I’m sorry). Needless to say, I thought wrong.
It’s starting to dawn on me that I’ve been unemployed for the past six months. I spent the first two months of my unemployment preparing myself for a storm of interviews, and going from company to company but when I was finally ready to hunt for jobs, it was only a month until the the whole pandemic situation occurred.
I was doing okay, and I still am. But i’m not gonna lie about how I’ve been crying about my disappointment on how my life turned out a year after my graduation. This wasn’t in any of my plans. I envisioned myself working for a field that I am actually passionate about and interacting with inspiring people but i’m not.
And here I am, resulting to desperate measures and considering options that I’ve never even thought of before. It was upsetting. Being the control freak and over-thinker that I am, I just couldn’t accept the fact this gonna be it for me for who knows how long considering that the pandemic isn’t showing any signs of ending soon.
But I guess that’s just how it is for everyone isn’t it? Everyone else’s life is on hold, not only mine.
I talked to my friends about this, and this is what they had to say which actually helped me a lot:
Think of it as a little detour. Take it as a little stroll to an unknown alley. Eventually, your eyes will see your ultimate dream whatever it may be.
After moping around a lot, I figured that it was time to get my head out of my ass. I have now decided to stop trying to control things that I can’t control because it will only make me feel hopeless. The only thing I can do for now is to make do with the things I have.
Right now, I decided to settle and apply for a part-time job. Sure, it’s not my dream job nor is it a high paying one like full-time jobs but earning something is still better than sitting around and waiting for a miracle to happen. Plus, It would be a great way to help with the bills! That’s more important after all.
At the end of the day, I guess that’s just how life is. There are things that go according to plan and things that don’t, and it’s totally okay! Imagine if everything in life can be planned and predicted. How boring would that be?
Letting go is a hard thing especially when things don’t turn out the way you want it to be but sometimes it’s the only thing that will help us move on to better things and walk towards the path that fate laid upon us.
We may feel lost and hopeless from time to time but when we find our way we’ll realize that we needed to go through the rough path to get to the place where we were meant to be in.
Besides, pandemic or not we have all the time in the world to pursue whatever dreams that we want to fulfill. Plans don’t have to go according to plan right away. There’s perfect timing for everything, it might not be right now but it will come.
I was scrolling through my timeline when I saw this post and it actually lifted a lot of weight that I’ve been feeling. I hope it helps you too.
How have you been this quarantine, Reader? I hope you’re doing okay. Please don’t be so hard on yourself as I was. We’ll all get through this.