My Dream Life: Project Self-Love Entry #4

Honestly, thinking about my ideal vision of my dream life has to be one of the hardest question I’ve ever have to answer which is a bit funny considering it’s a question that has always been asked to pretty much all of us ever since we were young.

Despite knowing the answer to this question, I guess I still find it kind of hard to say it out loud or to write it for everyone to read. The things is, it’s an unrealistic dream life that can only happen to a few people. It’s not practical.

That is why my safe answer for this question has always been “I don’t know yet” because if you don’t know, then you don’t have to fail trying to pursue it. It’s the easiest way out. It’s a coward-thing for me to do, I know.

That’s mostly why I have been delaying writing this post because I didn’t really know what to say or decide.

But I guess recognizing and fully acknowledging that this dream is what I want out of life could be the first step in doing something about it.

I’ll have to admit that I’ve been day dreaming about the same ideal kind of life ever since I was little, and even now from time to time. As much as embarrassing it is to admit it, I’ve always dreamed of being a singer, singing the songs that I’ve written and pouring my heart out in front of a wide audience.

A recent dream I’ve come to find is being a writer and writing about fiction or self-help for people my age. I want to write books or articles that people and I, myself, want to read.

I know, It’s a child-like dream but hey, if i’m not gonna be a world famous singer or a best-selling writer then I can at least try writing and singing songs just for myself. I mean, that’s how it all starts anyway, right?

I’ve actually been taking free online songwriting courses and poetry workshops in Coursera. And I’ve been trying my best to post consistently here in my blog. It actually gives me a bit of happiness trying to learn about doing something that I am genuinely interested in.

I honestly don’t know where i’m going to go from this but I guess I am still hoping that taking the first step counts for something.

I really don’t want to overthink everything. I just figured, the world is in the middle of a pandemic, there’s a possibility that I can catch the virus and die, am I really going to keep lying to myself?

At the end of the day, the dream life would be spending your days doing something that you want, right?

I’m still a bit lost and confused about this but I have a feeling that i’m on the right track.


Hi, Reader! This topic was actually a bit uncomfortable for me to talk about because it’s something that I, myself have avoided thinking about but I guess, it’s something that I must do.

I never knew that loving yourself could mean loving your dreams too. I think this is a message that people must hear.

How about you, Reader? What’s your dream life? I’d love to hear it.

Love,
Fen

13 thoughts on “My Dream Life: Project Self-Love Entry #4”

  1. I love that you’re doing a songwriting course online! I’m doing a Freelance Writing course, which is my dream life – being a freelance writer so that I can work from anywhere in the world and travel around, permanently.
    It also felt like a silly dream for a while but the older I get, the more I want it. I think it’s cool that both of us are are taking actions towards our dream lives while in isolation! 😍

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    1. That’s so cool! May I ask where are you taking your freelance writing course? Can you link it to me? I’m interested in that as well!

      I think the quarantine has made me daydream a lot and think that maybe it is possible if I try it. Glad that you’re doing the same! 🙂

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  2. Aw Fen, many singers start out as amateur too. I may be biased but have a few Filipino friends, and they’re so good at singing. It’s probably because they grow up singing for fun. I think if it’s really your passion, you’ll do what you can to make it work. But it’s ok if you change, if singing is just your hobby now, our adult life doesn’t have to follow our childhood dream.

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    1. Thanks for your thoughts, Lynh! Right now, I don’t really know exactly what I want out of this dream. By this, I mean pursuing it or making it out to be as a hobby. But for now, i’m trying to engage with it to test the waters.

      But anyway, Thanks again for commenting! I still have a lot to think about with regards to this topic for sure!

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  3. I don’t know why but I get all mushy inside when people talk about their dreams ☺️ I still have the same dream as yours I actually tried to pursue it after I graduated and became a freelance writer for a few months but I stopped when I got a full time job. I’ve been wanting to go back but that’s impossible for me with this type of economy.
    I’m very happy for you though because your working towards it and that is more than what others do to achieve their dreams. ❤️❤️❤️

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    1. Oh that’s cool! Can I ask how you got into freelance writing? like what did you write and how much were your rates? I’ve actually been thinking of doing that for the time being but I don’t exactly know how to start hahaha!

      Anyway, thank you for lovely comment! ❤ It means a lot to me 🙂

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  4. I appreciate your courage to dream and to at least start off on that track. Very few people even dare to dream a life for themselves and even few try to do something to make it real! To me, It always feels good when young people try to direct their life towards their dreams!
    I would just say that whatever you dream, give your full heart to it! No matter how funny or ridiculous it may seem at first, believe that you will accomplish it one day and work for it. Don’t hesitate! 🙂

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    1. Thank you for your support 😭 This really means a lot to me. It’s really scary to follow your dreams but I just can’t imagine spending my life not even trying to pursue it. I hope you get to follow your dreams too 💕

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