Project Self-Love

I’ve been reflecting a lot recently about many different things but mostly myself. The truth is, I’ve always been so unsure of myself, always needing some sort of validation from others. This is mainly because i’m scared of making any kind of mistake or displeasing people I genuinely like and respect. It’s an unsettling feeling.

Funny thing is, what brought this sudden self-reflection is an Instagram filter. The other day I discovered this Q&A filter on Instagram where random questions pop up and I found myself struggling in answering a lot of questions such as: “What are you most proud of?” and “What is your favorite feature?”

But what really made me think was this question: “What is your favorite thing about yourself?”. I genuinely didn’t know the answer to that question. If you asked me what I hated about myself, I would’ve easily given you a list. This question, on the other hand, I have never really thought about before.

It’s not that I hate myself but I guess I subconsciously pay more attention to my flaws rather than my assets but why is that? Honestly, not being able to answer these questions made me feel like I don’t fully know myself. Who would’ve thought that an Instagram filter would give me an existential crisis? But I guess that’s just how my brain is wired.

I ended up at self-esteem tests online and basically confirmed that I do have low self-esteem, as hard it is to admit. For someone who encourages self-love, I sure am having a difficult time doing so despite never realizing it all this time.

After much thought, I came to the conclusion that self-love should be a perfect balance between being self-aware and trying to own your imperfections, and recognizing and being proud of your merits. Because the imbalance between these factors will only result to either low-self esteem or an egotistical attitude.

I still have a lot to work on myself. I figured what better way than to engage in journal prompts on Pinterest, so that’s where I found this:

Truth to be told, I’ve always wanted to write journal prompts but I’ve never gotten around to do so. I’m gonna try and answer these questions for my future blog posts! It will be interesting to keep track and look back on my current mindset months or years from now. I hope you ponder on these questions as well, Reader. Let’s shower ourselves with self-love!

Sincerely,
Fenichi

Ps. That’s me in my 2nd year of college by the way (hahaha) I chose that picture since it fits the concept of the article but I feel weird since I look a bit different now. I was so young and carefree back then. Damn, is this what old people feel? lmao

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35 thoughts on “Project Self-Love”

  1. I also have one observation to why we have low self-esteem especially in our country, one toxic Filipino trait is that when we feel really good about ourselves we seem to look cocky and over confident or even “GGSS”. So, we are used to self-deprecating to look “humble” until we really believe it deep inside which takes a huge toll on our self-worth. Like. let people be if they feel pretty and feel good about themselves be happy for them right? lol sorry for ranting hahaha. Anyway, great idea about the journal prompts! I hope it works out well and just do whatever you need to do to build that self-love. πŸ™‚ ❀

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    1. Awwe thanks! I’ll have to agree with what you said about the toxic Filipino trait. It’s hard to feel confident when others are used to bringing themselves down so it’s hard not to follow suit! We’ll have to work on that. Here’s to self love! Thanks for reading πŸ’•

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  2. really we all do the same thing to please everyone first, the advice “conclusion that self-love should be a perfect balance between being self-aware and trying to own your imperfections, and recognizing and being proud of your merits” really good. …and yes not only you, we all got to work on ourselves. πŸ’•πŸ’•

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    1. Yes! We should always strive to be the best version of ourselves! Glad you liked my post! Thank you so much for stopping by to read and comment! It means a lot to me πŸ™‚

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  3. Love this post! Thanks for sharing your experience, it’s very relatable and motivating. Although not all of us have the self-love we deserve, it’s important for us to find ways to overcome that, and I think doing journal prompts on your blog is an amazing idea!

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Kae! πŸ™‚ I appreciate it a lot! Glad that you were able to relate and be motivated by my post! xx

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